26 July, 2007

Μοναξιά μου, αγαπημένη...

Seismos, seismos!
To niwsate? Mpa! Egw proswpika den katalava niede (wrong spelling??? ax ayti i glwssοmatheiα mou!) An den me pliroforousan merikoi-merikoi egw tha zousa akomi stin kosmara mou! Sampws k pou to pliroforithika allakse kati, anw! Den ine ayto to point mas!
Poio ine to point mas? Ela mou nte?
To point mas einai oti exw ksenerwsei me olous! Filous, gkomenous, prwin agapes… den xerw giati... Stin teliki niwthw pws ola k oloi ine kalpikoi! Eirwneia e? meta apo kairo vlepeis ta panta pio kathara… o kathe anthrwpos k o golgothas tou! Oloi perimenoun ton allo gia na ginei to swsivio tou… k egw edw na sineiditopoiw pws kanis den mporei na mou dwsei ayto pou thelw… k to pio tragiko stin oli fasi ine oti den xerw ti akrivws thelw… o egwismos se olo tou to megaleio… oloi ma oloi eimaste egwistes… panta ta skiptra krata to diko mas egw, me ipsisti apaitisi na ikanopoiountai ta dika mas thelw… opoios to arnithei ayto amesws xaraktirizete ws lathos epilogi. Den iparxoun pia erwtes, aisthimata, arxes, idanika, ola thisiazontai sto vwmo tou proswpikou simferontos k tis ipotithemenis prospatheias mas gia eytixia k epiviwsi. Stin pragmatikotita ayto pou simvenei ine na prospathoume na kerdisoume ton kosmo simfwna me tis dikes mas prodiagrafes k aloimono se opoion epixeirisi na ipervei tous kanonismous pou toso prosextika exoume thesei.

Ws apotelesma analiskomaste se anousia pragmata k xtizoume monoi mas siga siga ti xrisi filaki mas, pou toso ipomonetika mas perimenei…
Diavaza proxtes ena arthro pou elege oti enas plousios epixeirimatias ksodeuse se ligotero apo 5 wres 210.000 dolaria se pota, se politeles club. to Crystal an den kanw lathos.
Skeftite poso kairo merikoi anthrwpoi, simperilamvanomenis k tis grafousas, xreiazontai gia na mazepsoun tosa lefta! Ala pes ayto den ine toso tragiko. Skeftite posa paidia tha mporousan na zisoun me ayta ta lefta, pou o kathe anegkefalos ksodeuei me tosi eykolia se anousia katanalwsima pragmata. Pleon, mas noiazei I diki mas parti k kanenas allos. Eksalou den ftaime emis an exoume lefta. Den ftaime an kanoume dio doulies gia na exoume arketa kala lefta. Ftainei aytoi k i moira tous. Ftaiei to peprwmeno, I adiaforia tous k I tempelia tous.
Skeftomoun pws tosoi anthrwpoi ston kosmo pethenoun dioti den exoun ta lefta gia mia egxeirisi pou isws na itan swtiria gia ti zwi tous. Skeftite oti enas giatros k mia kliniki me megali eukolia tha afine ton allo na pethanei sto katwfli tis klinikis, an den eixe to poligamimeno xrima na agorasi tis ipiresies pou tha tou eswzan tin zwi.
Proswpika exw kourastei. Dipsw gia apomonwsi. Na min vlepw k na min akouw kanena. Egw k I fisi. To xerete oti ta teleytaia xronia oi mones stigmes pou eniwsa eleytheri itan dioti antikrisa ena topio pou me taxideuse k afine tin psixi mou eleytheri na oneireytei. Ton teleytaio kairo mono I fisi mou prosferei ikanopoiisi, toulaxiston psixiki.
Anw to point ine pws isws kapoies fores I monaksia na ine o kaliteros filos. Sou dinei xrono na skefteis, na anazitisis, na psaksis, na vreis k sto telos na litrwtheis…

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

filosofikes anazitiseis... mallon mas mperdeyoun! panta skeftomoun an ine kaliteri i xazomara? isws toulaxiston zoume mia isixi zwi xwris dilimata!